You know what, forget about the whole story-line story idea. YES I WILL DO IT ONE DAY, this summer in fact! But I want to just vent a little bit about how I'm 21 now and I'm having an early-onset of a quarter-life crisis because I feel like I'm at the edge of doing really cool stuff and all I can think about besides Finance and CFA and work is YouTube and vlogging and podcasts, and just being involved in local theater programs and just... I need a creative outlet, I really do, and I have no idea why my heart/head is steering in this direction NOW, but can you imagine just coming up with funny scripts with your friends and making silly YT videos for the fun of it? Because I can! And I want to! I feel like I've always wanted to do this, but I never realized that this is what I wanted to do.
I have all these plans and ideas, but by God, how am I going to make these come to fruition if all of this depends on other people? Because more than wanting to do this myself, I need others who would want to do it just as much as me!
This blog is DEFINITELY just a product of my quarter-life crisis, and I CANNOT guarantee that this will last but maybe it will, okay >.>
Okay JUST to be clear, I want to do this for FUN and as a creative outlet, but I DO want to take this seriously. I guess the word I'm looking for is... hobby.
--Vanu
P.S. And you know what, knowing hat I'd be married in the next 5 years or so is NOT helping this crisis because it's like, "WHAT HAVE I ACHIEVED??? I'M NOT READY FOR MARRIAGE!!! I HAVE MY WHOLE LIFE AHEAD OF ME!!! I CAN'T BE ROOMMATES FOR LIFE WITH SOMEONE YET!!!"
And since marriage usually equates to little kids, the follow up thoughts are always, "I CAN'T BE RESPONSIBLE FOR ANOTHER HUMAN!!!! I CAN'T EVEN COOK YET!! I CAN'T BE A PARENT!!!! I CAN'T EVEN CLEAN UP AFTER MYSELF!!!!????"
I have all these plans and ideas, but by God, how am I going to make these come to fruition if all of this depends on other people? Because more than wanting to do this myself, I need others who would want to do it just as much as me!
This blog is DEFINITELY just a product of my quarter-life crisis, and I CANNOT guarantee that this will last but maybe it will, okay >.>
Okay JUST to be clear, I want to do this for FUN and as a creative outlet, but I DO want to take this seriously. I guess the word I'm looking for is... hobby.
--Vanu
P.S. And you know what, knowing hat I'd be married in the next 5 years or so is NOT helping this crisis because it's like, "WHAT HAVE I ACHIEVED??? I'M NOT READY FOR MARRIAGE!!! I HAVE MY WHOLE LIFE AHEAD OF ME!!! I CAN'T BE ROOMMATES FOR LIFE WITH SOMEONE YET!!!"
And since marriage usually equates to little kids, the follow up thoughts are always, "I CAN'T BE RESPONSIBLE FOR ANOTHER HUMAN!!!! I CAN'T EVEN COOK YET!! I CAN'T BE A PARENT!!!! I CAN'T EVEN CLEAN UP AFTER MYSELF!!!!????"
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